my last breath.

japan's night life!

so that is japan in a flash. more pictures on my facebook. it was really busy, quite expensive, but amazingly fun and beautiful.

so anyway.i am tired. really completely exhausted. have been since the start of school. i think i'm not eating enough proper food (i have been stuffing my face with chocolate non-stop, but that's supposed to make me hyper right?where is my sugar rush..).. so yeah. went for swim training today, (second time in 2 weeks! :D amazing!) and i am officially branded-"the burnt out".i think i'm like the "ah ma" of swimmers there. certainly have the figure to prove it. swam for about an hour before the pool closed, did crazy tiring land exercise before dropping back into the water for another round of hell (in my honest perspective). now i have burning arms and sore fl-abs. i have committed to another 2 training sessions this week.
looks like my squabble with pig will warrent me an extra one as well.
have been rather patient with people, but totally lost it with pigs. my god. i think i have spent too much of my time and energy just solely waiting on him, goddammit. every phone call, every visit, why do i *ucking bother? honestly? i think i should just give him the liberty over all of this, then there wouldn't be a *ucking damned problem. yea, just come whenever he likes. life's just a lot easier like that, and there won't be any problems over broken promises and what not. after all, he's not obliged to be around me. the worst part is, he tried to argue with me (the bloody exhausted girl who got burning arms from insane swim training) when i decided to let him have things his way. crazy. wtf. i need therapy.
i need more chocolate.
~ciao