♥ paranoia in bloom

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2011-04-01T18:15:00.000-07:00

2010-06-14T01:30:00.000-07:00

moving out to tumblr.

hammies hammies

2010-05-26T23:15:00.000-07:00

how do i tame a hamster? damn.
that little terror is fierce! but cute. it grew twice its size. very soon it'll have little fat rolls. adorable. it gave me the evil eye just now so i'm leaving it alone for a while.

busy busy busy day today. going to get my POSB card thingum done up, then i'm heading for chem tuition (i study damn hard ok! amidst all my shit..) then i'm rushing to ian's rock concert thinggy. not coming home early again i guess..sigh. busy busy busy.

LOL to all the shit in life.

2010-05-20T01:57:00.000-07:00

got this little rodent 2 weeks ago.
its super crazy hyper at night, and it eats non-stop every second the little bastard is awake.oops. i think it grew twice its size from the time i got it till now. yay.
pig by day, ninja by night.so i called it ninja. cool right.
i love my hammie.
have been really busy recently,
running all over the place,
coming home quite late,
really tiring. ugh.
now i have to go out again ):
but its for my boy's performance. (:
i sound like a mother.
shit.wtf.
as aunty as i may seem and am becoming,
i am still 16, young and bubbly.
who am i really kidding?

2010-04-20T04:46:00.000-07:00

pretty sexy booties, all the rage. but i dont know where and when i can wear them out.
tell me what i should do with it!

this blog is as good as dead.

2010-03-02T06:20:00.000-08:00

CNY in a gist. i know its late.
i need a little height boost, i know. but hey, EVERYONE WAS CHEATING.
ok,not everyone, but if they weren't tall (even if they all were to me..) they tipped toes. so they all cheated.
i am not being a sore loser.

my latest update? ---i have a piece of metal stuck in my throat.
summary of story: i ate canteen food.
story in detail: i ate a cheese omelet in the canteen, that had egg shells and 2 wires in it. i took one out but couldnt find the other in my mouth.

i can't eat, i cant sleep, i cant swim (not that i'm complaining.. but SNAG's nxt week.) .
how? and now i'm getting advice like.. eat mushy food or go on a liquid diet..CUMMON. how do real people live on such unsubstantial food! i need chocolate, chips, fried chicken and mushrooms! i think i might just faint from hunger anytime soon. have not eaten anything since yesterday. ):
going to A&E tmr, hope its nothing too serious.

dead beat.

2010-01-13T07:08:00.000-08:00

omg. i really cannot feel my damned legs. it might as well shrivel up and drop off..saves me from the pain i'm going feel tmr. Got to keep trying though. Need to train harder, get fitter, lose more weight... and not lose my mind in the process.

So.just had my Sentosa chalet booked. now i have a chalet, pre-paid and waiting for my arrival (: yay. My sweet sixteen, once ina lifetime (arn't all birthdays? but still...) got to be happy (: (also need to lose more weight so i wont look screwed up in photos ;D ) i intend to lose 3kg before my birthday. am i aiming too high? (: happy over the moon(:

~~btw, my birthday is coming.~~
~~where is my present?~~
~~i want my birthday present.~~
my birthday is on the 1st feb.
hint hint.

:D

~ciao

my last breath.

2010-01-05T06:15:00.001-08:00

japan's night life!

so that is japan in a flash. more pictures on my facebook. it was really busy, quite expensive, but amazingly fun and beautiful.

so anyway.i am tired. really completely exhausted. have been since the start of school. i think i'm not eating enough proper food (i have been stuffing my face with chocolate non-stop, but that's supposed to make me hyper right?where is my sugar rush..).. so yeah. went for swim training today, (second time in 2 weeks! :D amazing!) and i am officially branded-"the burnt out".i think i'm like the "ah ma" of swimmers there. certainly have the figure to prove it. swam for about an hour before the pool closed, did crazy tiring land exercise before dropping back into the water for another round of hell (in my honest perspective). now i have burning arms and sore fl-abs. i have committed to another 2 training sessions this week.
looks like my squabble with pig will warrent me an extra one as well.
have been rather patient with people, but totally lost it with pigs. my god. i think i have spent too much of my time and energy just solely waiting on him, goddammit. every phone call, every visit, why do i *ucking bother? honestly? i think i should just give him the liberty over all of this, then there wouldn't be a *ucking damned problem. yea, just come whenever he likes. life's just a lot easier like that, and there won't be any problems over broken promises and what not. after all, he's not obliged to be around me. the worst part is, he tried to argue with me (the bloody exhausted girl who got burning arms from insane swim training) when i decided to let him have things his way. crazy. wtf. i need therapy.
i need more chocolate.
~ciao

i cut bangs and i'm not happy with it

2009-12-12T05:46:00.001-08:00

piggums!(:

kunming'09!

hello.

back from kunming, china! (: did not like the traveling, but loved the visit.

shopped quite a bit, and ate quite a lot more.(did not put on any weight though..) Cut bangs and i am not loving it. the hairdresser refused to listen to me!i told him not to layer my hair, he cut first and tried to explain later that by layering my hair, my face will have more dimension. what rubbish. IS MY FACE FLAT?! but fortunately (and comfortingly), i got a lot of positive feedback. bangs are horribly uncomfortable. and my layered hair is ANNOYING. its so thin now ): i wanted big hair! like the 80's hairstyles.. aw sharks. so unflattering. i just posted photos from my kunming trip on facebook. won't post everything here, not willing to go through the motion of constant clicking. blogger is inconvenient.

so. after china trip, piggum backed out of his 'fetching me from the airport' deal. great eh.

but, being ever-so-forgiving, i decided to be the forgiving little girl with china bangs.piggum's first reaction to my not-so-forgiving bangs? -a burst of laughter. then he started sweeping my fringe. hooray.

went to some orphanage with him recently to deliver christmas presents (which he refused to wrap) and mostly loafed around in my house, wandering around like 2 lost, lazy souls.

nothing much to do right now, i shall continue blog shopping. (:

~ciao

Life's a Bitch. Sanity is a cozy lie

2009-11-22T02:22:00.000-08:00

hello.
i think i'm stuck in a twisted game of survival.
my sister is lucifer's spawn, and my parents are mental. almost. and i can't get club music out of my head. ugh.
since i've decided to be a lot more mature about this, i shan't hold grudges.
:D

i want to go out, but i never come home early when i go out, and that makes me tired ):
i need a freaking pair of awesome heels and pretty oxfords for.. me.
i know my trend of thought doesn't really flow. i would like a DSLR to go with the shoes(: time for a new camera, i want to take more photos!(:
and i need my BMI to be below 18 ):

therefore,10 things i need to:

1. Stop bumming around
2. Get off my pretty little bum (not that little,really.)
3. Shop!
4. Save money (that comes before shop right :/ )
5. Convince my parents that i am in need of a new camera...
6. Shop!
7. Stop eating chips for breakfast..
8. Not to eat anymore chocolate.. who am i kidding?
9. Cut down on milk in my coffee
10. stop piggum from feeding me.

***

going to kunming in less than 2 weeks, and off to the world's fashion haven--Japan!
oh ooh oh ooh uh oh! (:

i hope i go to sweden soon, fashion there is supposedly brilliant too.

damn the dirty dirty dirty rich rich.

btw, i just figured out what my mother sounds like when she screams : a screeching train.

absolute randomness for the soul and mind.

j'adore piggum.

Need to get a life

2009-11-15T07:02:00.000-08:00

went to piggums house,

battled with my bottomless pit of a stupid stomach, played wii, watched my rented movies, and became the pig's alarm clock while playing plants vs zombies (yeah,i'm crazy right?).

and guess what.

I WENT TO CHURCH TWICE!

damn holy right. ~~though not without the reluctance and ...~~

anw, i think i'm just going to pile on 10000 more kilos during the school hols, at the rate i am eating.. sinful calories are just so attractive. ): i need a personal trainer and someone to watch my diet (: all pig does is feed feed feed me. (: / ):

tmr is pig's post Os party, rock band/guitar hero thing at his place..

i'm going to be like a sore thumb there. but for the pig, i'll be that sore thumb tomorrow. i had better not stuff my face or i'll just.. become his kind.

tummy ache ):

~ciao!

Piggum (:

2009-11-04T09:13:00.000-08:00

today was..such a goddamn lazy day. i woke up, checked my email (THE LEATHER JACKET IS MINE!WHOO!) ..kept piggum waiting 20mins downstairs, went down and found him studying (aww :) ) and ate lunch. then we played wii and piggum had to go for tuition (which was conveniently canceled..) . stupid piggum. took a 3 hour long nap today cos' i didn't have my fill of caffine when i woke up, so now i'm hyper active. can't sleep. how?

cant wait for Os to be over.. (: though i'm not sitting for it,close to everyone else is ):

going to piggum's house tmr to do some mosaic with his nieces (: yay, finally doing something more productive than bumming around. (:

♥

piggum!

grumps.

2009-11-02T09:13:00.000-08:00

why i am grumpy today:

1. i should censor my face on all photos.ugh. or i should just crop myself out -.- darn ugly. ian says i'm obsessed, but i don't think i am. i mean, HELLO?! what the hell was i thinking?! god. in some photos i had make up on, but is it visible? NO. so why do i bother? grr. i need plastic. ):

2. some little grumpy prune decided that he was sleepy so he left my house early.but after he heard that his J custom (for non guitar junkies' info, its a guitar model) was coming in the following week, he couldn't sleep. plus. he went all high and nuts. UNFAIRness man. so sleepy at my house, yet so excited over a guitar. blehs. i will remember this. ugh.

3. i was blog shopping. i think i entered this cheena shop keeper's blog, and saw this pretty nice biker jacket. so i asked for its material, since "very high quality+very warm keeping material" was the only description of the material. what was the reply? "description of material is as stated on web.kindly refer." UGH. so i asked again, stating more specifically, "by any chance, is it a leather jacket? because i'm looking for a leather jacket" ..reply? "material of jacket is as stated on the web, under the measurements. kindly refer." -.- english fail. HOW DOES ANYONE KEEP A DAMN BLOGSHOP IF THEY CAN'T ANSWER FUNDAMENTAL QUESTIONS LIKE THAT?!?

4. my sister is annoying. cutting up all my stuff and snatching the TV remote control from me!?

-mortal sin. ugh.

5. my ma didn't like the f21 leather jacket i wanted, so i had to settle for a tracyeinny.com.sg one. which is very super nice ( :) ), and shipping/postage and all is hassle free.. but i still prefer the f21 one. but heck. i'll make do.

6. i am feeling fat. like, size 1000000 kind of fat, fat. gosh. i'm glad, that i can still fit most size UK6-8 clothing online according to measurements given, but still. ugh.

7. the prune is always grumpy. pig.

and i think i'm getting cranky now.

i better stop ranting here.

~ciao

shopping frenzy

2009-10-29T09:51:00.000-07:00

UGH.

i need to shop!

but guess what! UGH! i'm on a budget. so. i'm currently deciding if i want to splurge on victoria secret stuffs plus a LV Damier canvas, advice needed. plus a whole lot of other nonsense. not exactly nonsense, but not-so-yet-very-essentials. do i make any sense? as much sense as an indecisive teenaged shopper. blog shopping is just so entertaining.

anw, ian found the DS! whoo. bye bye boredom! i hope. ok. anw, my endless cups of coffee have rendered me sleepless. what to do? shop shop bloody shop. i want to stop, but the damn mouse wont stop clicking. :)

`ciao

bummers of the world unite!

2009-10-27T21:32:00.000-07:00

why is cat bored?

firstly. most of her friends are either abroad or taking their big Os. secondly, she refuses to ever go to the gym again, despite piling kilos. lastly. bec ian is not here yet, so she doesnt have anyone to terrorize. how? rot.

she has decided to quarantine herself at home for the next.. ugh. pool party this week end, she wonders if it will cease the burning pain of the jabbing boredom is giving her. it had better be fun or she'll just turn into a screaming ghost on halloween.

now, cat is wondering why she has decided to speak as the third party. or second. or..ugh.

cat has to stop ending her sentences with "ugh".

bored.

i shall go back to sleep. soon.

ugh.

~ciaos.

talking to inanimate objects

2009-10-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

on the fence.

hate exams, hate it when exams are over.
god kill me.

randoms

2009-10-04T03:33:00.000-07:00

random photos for fun ,joy ,peace and laughter.

can you spot me?

toilet rendezvous.

claire,bern,me

black gang not enough money to afford beer,so everyone share one can of H2O.

moe & i

steph & i

mixed nationalities!

FLYING LEG IN THE CHEM LAB!

at east coast bbq, with my floating head.

yea, randomly uploaded photos cos i thought my blog needed a little more life.its dead.really dead.

exam starts tmr, and to make matters worse, its math.MATH. m a t h. bloody god forsaken mfh math. ian threw me a couple of math questions and i couldn't do it without bugging his ass off. how? . :/

stress.

imma go jump off a building, hit the ground, climb back up, and jump right off it again.

waiting for ian to come back and throw more math questions at me again.

my oh-so-dedicated math tutor/ (:

wishing myself all the luck i can get to not drop dead of a cardiac arrest on my classroom floor tmr.

~ciaos

my sarcasm never fails me.

going to burn my math textbook.

2009-09-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

me,julia,becca! confirmation'09

kat,becca,me conference'09

i'm the only one wearing heels,yet they tower over me):

ah!

confi!

renovated my blog,
starting afresh!
more photos later.

~ciao